As much as I wan everyone to be happie during the wedding preparation, I myself is hurt. The disadvantage I had is I do not have a mother to be with me throughout my wedding preparation. I feel very alone, very tired, and very very very very helpless..

Today, I'm not happie, and I cried. I miss my mother terribly at this moment. If she is around with me, I will feel safer. At least, I feel safer, not like now.. I'm all alone.

I want wedding preparation to be a happie one... no quarrels, no arguments, no conflicts..

I am really not happie, but I have to act to be happie....

mother, i miss you.... terribly...